oh *hit here we go again..............

so as I ended my last posting....with I've just been served..I should explain....Let me give you the nickel version..A bit about me..I'm a 45 year old single well living with my partner of under a year..I was married for 25 years to a lets say um mm Mr x. well this June will be 3 years divorced and he is still making my two kids and somehow my life a living hell on earth. Now don't get me wrong I'm grateful, because without X I would not be blessed with my two wonderful kids who I love as long as the day turns into night. These two kids have been thought hell and back at this mans whims. Now he decides he can no longer afford any child support. But still wants my ass to cart them to him per the decree which he has twisted more ways than Chubby Checker.. old school...good tunes...google if you must...this Mr x and his new woman he he..continue to make my life a living hell and my wish would put me away and I love my partner and kids to much for that.....So the sheriff hands the the papers and says"are you XXXX and I say why yes" and he says"you've been served" you need to appear in court 1 1/2 hours away on DEC 1. 20008 at 9:30am.....Okay fine the two kids have school that day..explain that one Lucy.....Mr x lives 5 minutes from the fucking court house has no job n0 kids.....yet I have a house to run 2 kids that need to go to school have homework need clean clothes want this want that need this have I mentioned that I myself have kinda this medical issues that's keeping me from not working...when Mr x. conducts himself just fine lives for free in a trailer on his parents land goes to school works under the table and yet still wants to claim both kids on his fuck*ing taxes....okay I think I'm getting way way off track........probley leaving the state ......or just my mind.....Now my partner Connie is very support of my in all this I don't think it's fair for her.......so there is one other bone for my mind to chew on............well that's all for now folks..................I'm out of here..........thanks for letting ramble.............................smalls

it's quiet and I'm just waiting

it's 2:35 p.m. here I just finished running a bunch of things I had to do today...Still working on laundry and the domestic wonder stuff of my every day existience...as it is for now.....I waiting for that red headed young man you see...wait take 5 dogs want in.....listen to the music on hold...shot forgot to load sound track well hummmmm to your self okay....see that didn't take long..well they say the sound of quiet is the loudest sound they is and I do believe it sometimes...well got to run I'VE JUST BEEN SERVED BY THE MAN.....

good night sweetheart good night

as my day comes close to an end....my oldest is still sitting here in the kitchen with me---my partner waits up stairs---my nine year old is asleep---I pray--see no one has school---Connie does have to work so now I will try and shut my ever spinning mind to a slow grind and try to catch 20 winks till 4 am.............when this wheel starts up once again

Monday Morning....again

OK so I start this blog with all good reasons to keep in touch with reality as one knows it...lol.....let me explain a bit about my life at this point....I have two kids from a marriage gone real yucky.....after 25 plus years I choice to change teams...A decision I wish I made a hundred years ago....OK but you get my point....So My partner is a loving giving caring person whom I have fallen and she has to head over heals in love with each other..so together now we are taken on my two kids....you figure the odds are better right....well the numbers still don't ad up.....well I've got to wake my 9 year old for the big yellow fairy the 13 year old thank you to the powers the be is already gone.........on the bus....that's a whole other can of worms I must say........rather ugly worms.....and I like worms....lol

is it true......have i just created my very own blog...no can't be....never said i would.....what on the face of god's green earth would have made me do it.......Well Shea I guess I in the big league now..I guess It all makes perfect sense a place to vent and interact with the real world out side my window on life..........................